Winter is still not sure to appear with all its crystal beauty as of yet...
the mountains are filled with fog and rain. Cold, cold rain.
The winter months here in the mountains do not begin with a great deal of fanfare.
They start slowly, as if to give us time to become accustomed to its beauty.
As the wind moves swiftly through the trees, my heart begins its constant pondering.
Lord, another year without answers... another year without any sort of respite.
another year Lord...
Answers to these questions do not come swiftly, or maybe I am not as good at hearing them because it is not what I want to hear. How then to begin this new year?
I don't wish to start it on a somber note...yet, my body and my heart say otherwise.
So forward I go, taking each day as it comes and looking up. Always looking up towards the mountains around this humble home.
And for the first time, I saw the most beautiful site.... an eagle flying high, singing for all the world to hear. Praising our God with its majestic wind span... I had no camera to record the moment.
Just my eyes as I beheld the beauty of God's creation, so close to my home...
... and then I heard the answer to my heart's questions...
..."But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint..."
The bird perched itself high on one of the mountain peaks, too high for my eyes,
filled with tears, to distinguish him clearly.
Yes, Lord, You have answered me and reminded me that it is in You that I put my hope.
My whole being, my health, my thoughts are kept in Your hands.
I know that I can withstand this physical pain, this uncertainty in my daily life,
as long as Your strength continues to flow through my body.
Yes! I will soar as high as the eagle Lord...
Yes! I will walk and not faint.
I will stumble if I allow my pride to take a hold of my heart,
and forget to slow down and use my cane for support...
Yes! I will run...maybe not as fast as I used to,
but my steps will be sure and that will be a run for me.
This is the verse you have planted in my heart Father...
This is the reminder...
Your promise to me, as I begin to live this new year.
A year that will be lived on a moment by moment basis.