March... a new month...the promise of Spring...renewal...rebirth.
This is what the season of spring means to me. In Spanish, spring means "primavera" a
beautiful word to me. But then I'm partial :0)
Here in the mountains, everything is beginning to wake up from their winter slumber. The trees are filled with buds and the early bulbs are already shooting up to take the delicious sun that seems to be visiting quite often nowadays.
Today, of course, as I write this, it is cloudy with chances of rain for the next two days... but to me, it is sunny and beautiful!
I know that in my previous writings, many of them I have deleted due to the constant
hopelessness in my words, I have shared my constant battle with this unknown disease that has played havoc with my life.
It has robbed me of my outlook ... my joy. I have tried to stay positive. To look upwards towards the mountains and to remember that the God I love is always with me. But I have to share, that most days, it just took too much effort and I fell quite deeply into a deep hole that blocked out the sun and all its brilliance.
This past Tuesday, I was finally given a resemblance of a diagnosis. Now, as my doctor shared, he is 96% sure it is the correct one, but he will not completely write it down in my chart...
but like I said to him then, I don't care to have a diagnosis anymore. Yet, he did give me one..
I have Multiple Sclerosis.
To many this could be a life sentence. But to me, it is just a name to the symptoms that have been with me for the past three years. Since last Tuesday, I have had quite a bit of time to accept this new disease, even if it is only 96% accurate :0)
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As of today, my outlook is even brighter than it was last month's. I am on medication, but I have also taken steps to change my lifestyle even further.
Simplicity is truly my new life! It has to be. Letting go of clutter. Putting our finances in order so that John, my husband, will be able to pick up where I left off, seamlessly. Both our sons are in college now, and no, I have not shared with them the 96% diagnosis. Instead, I have begun the process of living!
This cottage has become a hive of activity, but also a haven to my life! There will be days where all I will be able to do is sit and knit. And then there will be days where I'll be able to move about my garden with a pep to my step :D
This space will also become a haven to share. To inspire. To encourage.
....and most of all, to My Savior, a thank you for my life. What a gift!
Talk to you tomorrow dear friends...in the meantime, live today to the fullest!
It is HIS blessing to each of us!